A poetic life of anonymous

I want to give you all a sneak peek to the book that i want to finish...

I tried to hide everything in the dark
even though I don't know how to start
everytime that Im alone
feels like the day was too long

My friends keep telling me
why dont I smile
I just tell them
I dont want to try

The words that they say
keeps haunting me
what Am I
or what should I be

Then sometimes I compare myself to other
asking why Am I not like them
Then I start watching them facing the world
While Im the only one to live in pain