How should I start this...? another chapter of my life has ended. the chapter where the girl I used to love DISAPPEAR... it's been 4 months since we broke up, 4 consecutive months that I've been like an idiot which certainly am not.
Inakala ko kasing babalik pa sya.. Tama nga siguro "HABANG PINIPILIT MO LALONG NAWAWALA"
But see, I'm smiling again, happy being her FRIEND without any grudge on her. losing her made me realize that there are lots of people who loves me, and continuing to love me. with all the rejections I receive from her comes with a realization that I should already MOVE ON.
This time I can definitely say that "MY HAPPINESS WILL NOT ALWAYS BE DEPENDING ON YOU...".
You haven't notice and appreciate my existence, ignore all my efforts, REJECT ME FROM ENTERING YOUR LIFE.
It's me against all odds, face the consequences of my MISTAKES. Good thing I still have friends, TRUE FRIENDS.
Eversince she left me I felt its the end of my world(hyperbole), but eversince that day came so many good things happened. it's as if yesterday i say to myself " EVERYTHING IS GONE, EVERYTHING IS HOPELESS. I'VE LOST THE HEART FOR LIVING". But now, after realizing that it's finally over, that were through.I guess my life isn't so bad after all. I don't want my heart to feel NUMB, PATHETIC, MISERABLE and HURT.
HABANG HINDI MO PINAPAKAWALAN ANG BAGAY NA NAGDUDULOT NG SAKIT NA IYONG NARARAMDAMAN PATULOY KANG MASASAKTAN...
YOUR PERCEPTION OF REALITY IS YOUR REALITY...
your life has always two sides -- a left side and a right side -- the bad stuff happening and the good stuff happening.
A lot of people spend the whole day looking at the left side -- the side where they list everything that is wrong with their life. twenty-four hours a day, they think about it, meditate on it, analyze it, mull over it. that's why they're MISERABLE.
Make a decision to spend the whole day looking at the right side of your life.
I know this is very difficult
especially when you fail
when we fail, we emotionally beat ourselves endlessly.
we label ourselves as "BIG LOSERS"
we curse ourselves to fail forever
for as long as religion use to make people feel bad about themselves. Once upon a time(4 months ago.. hahaha). I used to call myself a failure.
because I would focus on my weakness(Christine)
the more I focused on her the more I get hurt.
nahahalata ko sossy ko ngaun ah.. english talaga?? hahahaha
serious mode ulit
HMMM... it's been a rough ride though... to the adventue where you have to move on, let go and FORGET.. ang sakit na kasi talaga kapg hindi ko pa ito itinigil. walng maidudulot na maganda sa akin. Sobrang hirap ng maghintay sa isang tao na binabalewala ka na, pero mas mahirap ay ang magpasya ka kung maghihintay ka ba o kakalimutan mo na sya. Minsan umaasa tayo ng sobra sobra, ako inakala ko na kami na talaga, pero ngaun bigla lang nawala
ANG SAKLAP NOH? ang sakit pa!!!
MINSAN NA NGA LANG AKO MAGMAHAL YUNG MALI PA!!...
ANU BA MGA NATUTUNAN KO NUNG INIWAN NYA AKO??
hmmm..
never invest deep feelings for someone.
never hope that they'll love you the way you want them to.
never expect those sweet gestures and words are true.
cause eventually everything becomes a past. sooner or later they'll just drop you off and will leave you nothing. So train yourself to let go of the things you fear to lose. So that you wont feel dumb and pathetic all along... MAS MAGANDANG MAGTIRA NG KONTI PARA SAYO..
hindi naman talaga masamang ibigay mo ang lahat. hindi masamang magmahal ng sobra. Minsan ang mali lang ay ang taongpinili mong mahalin. HINDI NA RIN NAMAN SYA UNG TAONG MINAHAL KO EI.. kaya bakit ko pa sya hihintayin NGAUN PANG KAYA KO NG WALA SYA, NGAUN PANG UNTI UNTI NG NAWAWALA ANG NARARAMDAMAN KO SA KANYA...
tama sila L.A... wag kong aksayahin ung itsura ko...
madaming nandyan at hindi lang sya...
madaming taong mas ipagmamalaki ako...
siguro nga may iba na... actually meron naman na talaga ei... meron na syang pinapantasya...
wala na akong karapatan mangealam dun...
naartehan ako sa kilos nya... sa pananalita nya.... may mga bagay na nararamdaman ko ng bumabalik na ang dongseng qoh... pero MAS MATIMBANG PA DIN UNG UGALING NAKUHA NYA... sabi nya nga pala sya un... ung UGALI NA LANG NA PINAPAKITA NYA...
di lang sya ang pwede kong mahalin...
next time, di na muna ako magseseryoso...
dami ng nagpayo sa akin...
don't make your life miserable.. magayos ka... ipakita mo ung taong iniwan nya... di mo man mahigitan ung mga nagustuhan nya...
on another thought... i think KINAKAHIYA NYA TALAGA AKO!!
ewan ko ba...
bakit ba nagawa nya to.. may kasalanan ako.. nasaktan ko sya... nasakal...
PERO HINDI SAPAT NA DAHILIAN UN PARA IWAN NYA AKO...
IF LOVE IS TRUE... I GUESS PAIN IS NEVER A REASON TO LET GO...
kahit masakit... mahirap... as long na mahal mo talaga ang tao...
DI KA BIBITIW HANGGANG SA HULI..
un na ang nakatatak sa isip ko ngaun...
PINAGTRIPAN NYA LANG AKO... AT HINDI NYA TALAGA KAYANG PANINDIGAN ANG MGA SINABI NYA...
give me sign...
tama pa bang magmahal ako ng taong ganyan? :(
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