My sorry

Nov. 27,2014

Hi bloggy. I messed up. I've done stupid things a while ago. 

But that's just me, showing the true side of me.

Nasaktan ako. I know there's no reason for me to get hurt but yes that's what I've felt.

I don't really like it when she's with some other guy. 

Am I paranoid? Well what's new? I've always been paranoid. I know mali maging paranoid para kasing sinasabi mo na wala kang tiwala sa kanya. But that's not the point of why am I being so paranoid about everything she does.

first, I'm afraid she'll find someone better than me. I know for a fact  that someone is way better than me. second, I don't want to get hurt again by being off guard or letting her do whatever she wants (that's the most selfish reason I have). lastly, I don't want to lose her :( which is what I'm doing. 

with the things I'm doing I'm letting her slide of my hands. 

Ang tanga tanga ko ba?

Hindi ba ako nadala sa nagawa ko nuon?

Hindi pa rin ba ako natututo?

I'm trying to be the best partner she have but all the things I do is giving her enough reason to leave.

Again I'm being too paranoid. Well it's just my opinion to in the first place, who knows what she's thinking.?

I'm so sorry sa ginagawa ko.

Pinipilit kong hanggang maari hindi ako magalit

pinipilit kong hindi ka masaktan sa mga ginagawa ko

pinipilit kong gawin ung lahat para maging masaya ka

PINIPILIT KONG WAG MAGSELOS, pero hindi ko kaya. :(

sorry po sa ginawa ko kanina sa. pero hindi ko kasi kaya na makita kang may ibang lalake :( ang sakit sa pakiramdam ko.

napapansin ko lang na parang mas iniintindi mo pa sila kesa sa akin :(

ewan ko ganyan din kasi sya dati :( 

masakit ung mga nakikita ko ngaun

oo selfish nanaman ako kasi ikaw hinahyaan mo ko. 

pero hindi ko naman ipinagpapalit ung bawat sandali na makakausap kita.

Hindi ko sinusumbat pero kasi nakakatampo lang na minsan may mga panahon na hirap tayung makapagusap pero sila nakakausap mo.

kaya ako nagagalit hindi dahil may kausap ka po o  anu, nagagalit ako kasi sana tayo ung magkausap. 

selfish ba? seloso ba? mainitin ba ang ulo? may topak? praning?

yun po talaga kasi ako eh. alam mo na ba bakit iniwan nya ako?

ganun na rin ba ung nararamdaman mo?

ang daming tanung sa isip ko.

bakit hindi na ako ganun ka sweet tulad dati?

kasi I'm trying to be matured enough to do something more than what I have done before. and I need to show people that I'm strong enough to be vulnerable whenever your involve with my problem. I need to keep that smile. Minsan nakkwento ko pag nagaaway tayu imbes na galit ung sinasabi ko pa din na mahal kita. which is true MAHAL TALAGA KITA.. sorry po talaga mahal ko. pati sa kaibigan mo. alam ko mali ung ginawa ko :(