So Sad...

Dear: someone...

why does everytime you are down and sad, i feel it?
why does everytime your in sorrow, im with you?

i know it hurts a lot for me, when you had him. but what can I do... I dont own you, and I'll never will

summer is now here... i dont know what to do, your gone now... i hate summer a lot...
cause when summer begun it means there's no coming back from the past and it means i would never see you...

I was inspired by you, i want to be with you... but i know its imposible...

Goodbye, my Someone...

even yhough i didnt take the chances, please remember me...!!!

Special A

Kei Takishima

His my favorite character in Special A....

oh, by the way Special A was a section of the most elite among elite student of Hakusen Academy... Special A or S.A was the section only the top 7 student can enter....

1.Takishima, Kei

2. Hanazono, Hikari
3. Yamamoto, Jun
4. Yamamoto, Megumi
5. Karino, Tadashi
6. Todou, Akira
7. Tsuji, Ryuu

they are the top seven student of S.A

Takishima, Kei. was a son of the Takishima Group President
Hanazono, Hikari was a daughter of a fisherman
Yamamoto, Jun younger brother of Megumi, son of a famous singer
Yamamoto, Megumi Elder sister of Jun.
Karino, Tadashi son of the school chairman
Todou, Akira Daughter of an airline company owner
Tsuji, Ryuu Son of the famous sport manufacturer

TO BE CONTINUED

LIMITATIONS....

LIMITATIONS
BY: Say Queri

there are this words limitation
even if some
think its a weird a imagination
but then you come in to your
realization
that limitation is best describe
as a great path to a new beginning
a path where things a bright
a path things were right
but this limitation has a good side
and also a bad side
Limitation can shorten your happiness
and make you sad
and also limitation can make you learn
and be able to think straight...

its mah berdey...hahaha

lets start with friday before the awaited party...

i was very happy that day... I saw peach, shes so pretty... as usual...
super kilig nga ako eh...

then when its our turn, she vanished...(again...hay)

when our and the st.johns performance was done we started packing up our stuff, preparing to go home...

we are going to trisha's house, for a sleep over, because it was too late to get home, so i decided, i mean we decided to stay at trish place... when we finish eating, they start drinking... i was watching them....(I dont drink brandy even beer)

i was so tired cause they finish at 3 AM... i lay down the floor then sleep...
i was awaken when my sister is kissing pot on the neck, she was waking pot up seductively...
pot came up with this answer..

pot: " ano ba...inaantok pa ako... kasi naman eh"

ate: "pot pot, ah pot pot... agagagagagagagagagaga"

me: ano ba natutulog pa ako oh... mamaya na kayo magharutan...

still they dont listen.... my sister, dewey and trish didnt sleep...

trish: sasama bang mamili yan?

she asked dewy if i will come...

dewey: hindi ata..tulog pah eh, parang mas nalasing pa sa atin. puro ice tea naman ang tinira...pati yung clover inubos...

trish: tara alis na tayo...

then i stand up, they are shocked, my eyes wide open...

trish: ooohhh... nagulat ako dun ah...

me: tara sama ako, pabayaan na natin matulog si pot...

then i go to the CR brush my teeth, wash my face, then i am ready to go out...
we ride on a tricycle...
when we arrive at the market, everyone was staring at me...as if im some kind of an artist...

wow, ngaun lang sila nakakita ng tao?...i thought to my self...

then after that we finished buying....!!!

when they re cooking, im texting... yellow...

pot: ui yellow, gumayak ka na ha...papunta na kami jan...

yellow: sorry hindi ako makakapunta eh... periodical test kasi namin eh... sorry talaga ha...

pot: say indi daw sya makakapunta....

i start crying... silently, tears fell down on my eyes... they are laughing at me... they didn't know id cry for her...

pot: ano ba yan... hindi mo man lang binati ng happy birthday... o sige bigay ko yung phone sa kanya batiin mo... umiiyak kaya...

then pot give me the phone...

yellow: happy birthday lindsay... sorry hindi ako makakapunta eh... test kasi namin hindi naman ako pwedeng hindi magtest... sorry talaga ha....

me: ok... tatapon ko na lang yung sanang regalo ko sayo pagdating mo dito... ung damit naman na binigay sayo ni pot ibibigay ko na para mabigay sayo... apology accepted... thank at dahil sayo narealize ko na marami pa palang magandang bagay ang dadating sa buhay ko... july 5 ang una nating pagkikita at july 5 din ang magiging huli... geh bye...

i gave the phone to pot

yellow: ui wag ka ng magtampo... o kaya next time kain na lang tayo sa labas...??

she read that...

pot: uiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii......hahahaha.....eeeeeeeeeeeeee....

then she let me read...i was laughing at her reactions...
after reading it I smiled...

trish, carol, ate,dewey: ui patingging nga kami...

then pot give them the phone...

all: uuuuuuuuuiiiiiiiii....

carol: wag ka ng magatampo...

then we texted....after our conversation... i took a bath...

then we all fixed up...everyone came...

white was the first person who saw me...

White: " ang ganda ng suot mo... bagay na bagay sayo"
the she smiled at me...

doon na lang yon... nakalimutan ko na yung iba eh....

bye lola...we all love you...

Feb. 20, 2009...

was a sad and yet happy day...

my grandmother whos living with us died... it was the night of the crying family... hehehehe.... we all cry, we all witnessed her slow death... i was trying to be brave... but I was carried by my emotions, tears starts to fell in my eyes, i start to have dificulty in breathing...i couldnt take it more so cried...

me: La patawarin mo ako sa kasalan ko sa iyo... la salamat sa pagaalaga mo sa akin nung bata ako, kahit ang binigay ko lang sa iyo ay sakit ng ulo...la, paalam na... sana mapatawad mo ako...

in my mind I was thinking, ang pagsisi talaga ay sa huli....
my mom get close to her...

mama: nay patawarin mo ako, di man lang kita nadala sa ospital, hindi man lang kita na dala sa aklan... ni hindi man lang kita nabigyan ng masaya at tahimik na buhay...

shit, si mama ang nagsalita...wala akong magawa,hindi ko mapigil ang luha ko...
my sister said

ate swit: samantalahin nyo na, ang tantya ko hindi na aabot si lola ng umaga... hindi pa maitim ang kuko.. naiintindihan pa kayo nyan...

ate swit, was able to revive my grandmother... she was the first one I saw when lola is not breathing any more, she was saying...

ate swit: Lola bumangon ka...la... wag muna ngaun...marami pa akong gustong iibigay sayo...

may sister was crying while she was saying that...
actually before my grandmother was determined dead, my sister came home. unexpectedly...
we all know that she was staying away for her job practice for two weeks... we didnt expect that in three day she'll be home...ate mayeth ask her

ate mayeth: o...nakauwi ka na? akala ko may training ka ate...?
ate swit: ewan ko ba...bakit naisipan kong umuwi...

then after 3 hours of her arrival, my grandmother stopped breathing...

ate liza, my cousin thought that lola is better, because she stop cathing her breath...
my mom get down...

ate liz: ate... tingnan mo magaling na si lola...
mama: ano? eh hindi naman ganun kadaling gumaling yun...

then my mom start to be nervous...

they holdmy grandmothers hands and body, its still hot... but when they hold her feet its so cold...i was sleeping during that... ate mayeth came upstair and wake me up... i was deeply sleeping when she said...

ate mayeth: say wala na si lola...

my eyes wide shut, i was very shocked... i think im falling from the bed, as if someones pulling me down... i stand up jump to the other side of the bed and hurriedly run downstairs... the i saw ate swit... crying...

after a while, my grandmother stop to fight, but when mama say

mama: nay dadating pa sila tony(mama's brother) at marie(ate liza's twin)

my grandmother starts fighting again... her feet is cold and theres no response when we pinched her fingers but still theres a pulse...

then my sister came, ate grace she travelled from cavite... when they arrived they start crying specially my nephew Franz.....

then eventually we all cry.....huhuhu...

after 1 and half hour uncle tony and ate marie came....
I heard lolas voice but I cant understand it, i thought it was my imagination, but its not.... its like uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... again and again.... my sister was talking to me when i heard that, but i point my fingers to her saying shut up for a while... she then stop talking, uncle and ate marie was crying.... i dont know what to do... then after 40 min. they start the prayer for my grandmother soul(for safe journey ). my sister grace was crying while shes praying, i couldn't help it all I can do is to cry also, so I cry...then the sun is rising... its already4:30 am.. ate grace told me to go to kuya ericks house and also to ate tina... so I obeyed it... we took a pedicab, and told where were going...when we finally arrive kuya was still asleep and also ate che(her wife) and roem(their son)...

Me: kuya wala na si lola

kuya erick: ano? sino? with a sleepy voice...

kuya cocoy: si lola suping patay na..

ate che was speaking but kuya erick didnt listen... kuya was shocked he dont know what to say...

Me: punta na lang daw kayo sa bahay....

Kuya erick: o sige sunod na lang lami...

then when we go home their askung me if im going to class...

Ate swit: papasok ka ba? may importante ba kayong gagawin? wag ka na munang pumasok kung wala naman...

im delight im now going to class...

me: wala naman(my alibi)..

after many hour past, visitors starts coming, some sleep in the house so we dont have a place to sleep, me and ate mayeths room are occupied so we decided to not sleep until morning....

feb. 13 2009

i was on cavite it was fun but so boring i guess...
we do movie trip, food trip and then again my wide and weird imaginations came up with another story "Love Denial". in my thoughts the story is about a company president and a hotel crew...

Narcissus Ullysis Alvida, a former company president whos life is always in success...
he was living alone in his big house in Los Angeles, he is also the owner of one the biggest hotel in L.A; The Avida Hotel... little did he know that his life will change when he met Janine the Chef in the Alvida Hotel... Narcissus dont really like commitment casue he is the man without passion for love he only put his attention to the job... on a one incident, the two met in the hotels elevator... Janine didnt know that the one that he met in the elevator is also the the owner of it... When janine enter the door, Narcissus heart trembles... his hands starts sweating, he feels that his turning red... Janine and Narcissus eyes met, Narcissus dint know what to do, but to keep stare at Janine. He was about to introduce hisself to Janine, but the elevetors door open "TING". Janine get out of the elevator...Narcissus didnt had the chance to introduce hisself to janine. then after a while, he keep thinking and thinking of the girl that she saw in the elevator. Janines face reminisced in Narcissus mind...

and thats the start of my craziness again...

Feb 11 , 2009

was a tiring and yet sad day...

our field demo ended up as a disaster, it didn't quite work well said the teacher...
sad cause White has a boyfriend " Horse"... sana kung mabasa ni white to wag sya magalit...

i had my own personal reason why Im angry on his boyfriend...

again tiring SBM chase me... but i didnt wear our uniform so the running went well...
after a long hide and seek with the SBM i finally went out of their sight... yeeepeee...

this day is one of the most disaster day of my life.....

TIRING......URGGGGG........

today was really tiring....peach is out of sight, all i can see is those people who i dont wanna see....

tiring yet happy

proud yet over whelmed

field demo was a total wreck, but its not that hard to focus cause peach isn't around so im not shy to dance.....

proud and over whelmed cause i recieve a gold medal for the story writing contest the MONSIUER VINCENT....

you know what I didn't expect that award, when I'm in the AVR being with Peach is the award I actually dream....I dont need any award, she is the most precious award I mught recieve(in my dreams)....

then i treat my friend...Jessah and White and hazel...

jessah told me...

"bakit ba laging may White na kasama?"
"bakit best friend mo naman sya ah"
"kahit na noh"
"edi tawagin mo na lang si peach, o si cold o si cake"
"di ko sila kailangan"
"pwes ako kailangan ko sila"

and thats our texting conversation....

then the awarding...

I didnt really expect of any awards...
i was behind the stage at that time, my classmate wycoco said

"Say may award ka...."

hes not really sure of what kind of award was that...

"Ano?"

"Oo nga nakita ko name mo dun ewan ko lang kung ano speech choir..??" he answered puzzled

i was confused....i didnt join any speech choir, i know im not the director of the speech choir cause im the director of the interpretative reading....

then Edwin came...

"say wag kang aalis jan ha"

i didnt know why, i was drinking when the teachers on stahe caled me...

" for the high school level...2nd place Lindsay Pauline C. Queri..."

i was shocked i kinda choke,i dont want to go to the stage, im so shy but I have to....

the teacher put the medal around my neck and give me a hand shake.... and thats all...

Jan 26, 2009...

a kilig moment again...

sarap palang mag participate sa activity paminsan maisan.....

whoooooooo.....

it was our filipino class... napagalitan pa nga ako, akala ni sir natutulog ako, pero ang totoo, ang sakit ng tummy ko...DI KO GUSTONG MAGCR....di rin ako nagugutom....basta bigla lang parang tinutusok ng karayom....

tapos yun na nga biglang may dumating unexpectedly....

its peach....

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

pot, lorraine, charise and eirin was shouting....look its peach lindsay...

peach,,,, lindsay oh....

I kinda blush...

I was shocked when she mentioned my name..

sir nandyan poh ba ito.?
QUERI....! sabi ni sir...

i was shocked and my friends are happy...when i came out of the room, i was in panic...cause I took off my shoes for a while...

then i saw her cousin

(at least I have someone to talk to....)

but then we watch a movie about our patron saint...

MONSIUER VINCENT...

i didnt understand the movie, cause the whole time im staring at her...

her cousin Jade knows i have a crush on her... but she didnt tell anything about it to Peach...

so my secrets are still safe...

but not for long....

last last friday....!!( jan 16, 2009)..
was a happy yet, kilig moments of my life...

again nag spin the bottle kami...
may bagong game, pasahan ng ice.... hehehe....

i dont want to say the rules, you might think its disgusting, but its fun...hell yeah, and super kilig....

love it....

but then bug bog nanaman ako kay pot...(as usual)...

then jealousy, came upon me....
basta, its also confidential...only those people whos in there know what is it.....!!!

i would like to thank them....Jessah, Pot, trish, dwight, yen, faith, leland, yen, and myca...

thank you...im so happy...again, kilig....!!!hehehhe...love you all....!!(wow, pang guineas world book of record)...ahehehehe.....!!! first time ko mag I LOVE YOU...ahehehe....

this are the kilig lines i remembered....

"kiss"
"i dont want to take you for advantage"

...then...

a kiss happend...
but still i like the first one...!!(amba)

"Kinuha lang kita jan sumakay ka na lang, nagseselos na yung isa"
"ok"

then hug...

and so on and so fort....aheheheh

....dont give this a meaning if you know who you are....

then she fin'lly knew it....the most confidential secret has been told and realized by her( peach)..

i was shy at that moment, i thought im gonna vomit, i thought im gonna be stuck at my position, i cant move....i was so embarrass, even though theres nothing to be embarrassed about it.....

i know its wrong, but what can i do..?? love..??? love is hard to stop,when it starts to pursue.....!!!

why...why does she have to know my secret... i was hiding it all the time, even though it hurts a lot...!!

i have to face and accept the consequences of being away from her...!!! love me, like me, or hate me...still I want to be me....!!!

I think you underestimated my personalities...
but i know im also wrong....!!!! loving someone, is not my thing...

i dont know love, i never felt love, I was born to protect not to love.....!!!!

Big headache....

I'm trying to let go of the past
and live in the present
and focus on today
but every time
you stepped in my mind
i just cant resist to think of you
i know i cant be perfect
i know i cant be the one you want
trust me if i say this
i like you, and i cant live without you
i just cant
you know I'm weak if it comes to you
i cant pretend you don't exist
its hard for me to adjust in that situation
love me for what I'm supposed to be
love me for being me
don't judge my personalities
in the outside
try looking forward to my inside
and then you'll realize
I'm better, i wont hurt you
so give me a chance...