Feb. 20, 2009...
was a sad and yet happy day...
my grandmother whos living with us died... it was the night of the crying family... hehehehe.... we all cry, we all witnessed her slow death... i was trying to be brave... but I was carried by my emotions, tears starts to fell in my eyes, i start to have dificulty in breathing...i couldnt take it more so cried...
me: La patawarin mo ako sa kasalan ko sa iyo... la salamat sa pagaalaga mo sa akin nung bata ako, kahit ang binigay ko lang sa iyo ay sakit ng ulo...la, paalam na... sana mapatawad mo ako...
in my mind I was thinking, ang pagsisi talaga ay sa huli....
my mom get close to her...
mama: nay patawarin mo ako, di man lang kita nadala sa ospital, hindi man lang kita na dala sa aklan... ni hindi man lang kita nabigyan ng masaya at tahimik na buhay...
shit, si mama ang nagsalita...wala akong magawa,hindi ko mapigil ang luha ko...
my sister said
ate swit: samantalahin nyo na, ang tantya ko hindi na aabot si lola ng umaga... hindi pa maitim ang kuko.. naiintindihan pa kayo nyan...
ate swit, was able to revive my grandmother... she was the first one I saw when lola is not breathing any more, she was saying...
ate swit: Lola bumangon ka...la... wag muna ngaun...marami pa akong gustong iibigay sayo...
may sister was crying while she was saying that...
actually before my grandmother was determined dead, my sister came home. unexpectedly...
we all know that she was staying away for her job practice for two weeks... we didnt expect that in three day she'll be home...ate mayeth ask her
ate mayeth: o...nakauwi ka na? akala ko may training ka ate...?
ate swit: ewan ko ba...bakit naisipan kong umuwi...
then after 3 hours of her arrival, my grandmother stopped breathing...
ate liza, my cousin thought that lola is better, because she stop cathing her breath...
my mom get down...
ate liz: ate... tingnan mo magaling na si lola...
mama: ano? eh hindi naman ganun kadaling gumaling yun...
then my mom start to be nervous...
they holdmy grandmothers hands and body, its still hot... but when they hold her feet its so cold...i was sleeping during that... ate mayeth came upstair and wake me up... i was deeply sleeping when she said...
ate mayeth: say wala na si lola...
my eyes wide shut, i was very shocked... i think im falling from the bed, as if someones pulling me down... i stand up jump to the other side of the bed and hurriedly run downstairs... the i saw ate swit... crying...
after a while, my grandmother stop to fight, but when mama say
mama: nay dadating pa sila tony(mama's brother) at marie(ate liza's twin)
my grandmother starts fighting again... her feet is cold and theres no response when we pinched her fingers but still theres a pulse...
then my sister came, ate grace she travelled from cavite... when they arrived they start crying specially my nephew Franz.....
then eventually we all cry.....huhuhu...
after 1 and half hour uncle tony and ate marie came....
I heard lolas voice but I cant understand it, i thought it was my imagination, but its not.... its like uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... again and again.... my sister was talking to me when i heard that, but i point my fingers to her saying shut up for a while... she then stop talking, uncle and ate marie was crying.... i dont know what to do... then after 40 min. they start the prayer for my grandmother soul(for safe journey ). my sister grace was crying while shes praying, i couldn't help it all I can do is to cry also, so I cry...then the sun is rising... its already4:30 am.. ate grace told me to go to kuya ericks house and also to ate tina... so I obeyed it... we took a pedicab, and told where were going...when we finally arrive kuya was still asleep and also ate che(her wife) and roem(their son)...
Me: kuya wala na si lola
kuya erick: ano? sino? with a sleepy voice...
kuya cocoy: si lola suping patay na..
ate che was speaking but kuya erick didnt listen... kuya was shocked he dont know what to say...
Me: punta na lang daw kayo sa bahay....
Kuya erick: o sige sunod na lang lami...
then when we go home their askung me if im going to class...
Ate swit: papasok ka ba? may importante ba kayong gagawin? wag ka na munang pumasok kung wala naman...
im delight im now going to class...
me: wala naman(my alibi)..
after many hour past, visitors starts coming, some sleep in the house so we dont have a place to sleep, me and ate mayeths room are occupied so we decided to not sleep until morning....
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